The Aftermath Of Panic Attacks

         Everyone is different when it comes to anxiety, people deal with it differently, panic differently or have different needs. This post is simply going to be how I dealt with it.

        For a long period in my life I was simply terrified. I didn't want people to think differently of me. I was so scared to go to school, or any other activities. Just because I was simply petrified that I would panic in front of people. This really I guess got me down. I spent a lot of time just sitting in my room, which is really not good. For someone like me, I should have been surrounded by people. It just makes you a whole lot happier.

       I really didn't know what to do. So many people just couldn't understand. They would try to understand, but honestly there is no bridge between people who have panic attacks and people who don't. Me not going to all these activities, it wasn't helping. I need to participate and be distracted for a while, when all I was thinking was am I gonna panic?

       Panic attacks also caused a lot of physical pain. For a while I always had this sort of knot in my stomach, and I always felt as if I were coming down with the flu. My muscles became super tense (I am still seeing a physio) I tried getting massages but the knots in my muscles are so tight that, that didn't cut it. I also had a lot of pain in my throat, which I'm actually having today...it causes more trouble to breathe and its just a struggle.

      I understand if you are experiencing any of these things, but now I need to show you how to get threw them, because you will.

      I started participating more when I realized I would never get this opportunity again. I'm never going to be in this grade in high school again. Never going to be this age, never going to get so many of these opportunities back. I understand its really hard, but you're going to get threw this.

     If you're having muscle spasms I can recommend a few things:

1.  Stretch the affected muscle

2. Use a heating pad

3.  See a doctor or physio

4.  Stay hydrated

5.  Ice the muscle

6.   Get a massage

     I hope this really help all of you! Remember to get out the best of life and continue to participate.
Thanks for all the support

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Why This All Started?

         People tend to ask why I ever started an anonymous blog, and I guess its a long story...so why no make it a post?

        I've always wanted to just simply share my opinion with the world. But the world always seems to judge. About two weeks ago my mother came over to me and told me...

      Mom:  "This lady told me something amazing today."

       Me:  "What?"

      Mom: "Well she's a teacher and she never asks the kids "What do you want to be when you grown up". She would always ask "Who do you aspire to be when you grow up?"

     Me: I thought... "I don't agree."

      Mom: "What?"

      Me: "You should never aspire to be anyone except for yourself."

      And I basically walked out of that room, as my mom looked at me in awe.

      I've always wanted to just express myself. Share my opinion. Because I feel like I have so much more to offer, but I'm always scared people will judge my opinion. So this blog, is my escape. It's my time to rant about things in a normal teenage life, to complain, to cry, to be happy and to just share. I just get to share my moments with all of you. I guess, I find that in the real world, I'm unable to share. I feel uncomfortable with sharing my thoughts.

      The blog was created anonymously, because thats its only purpose. I don't want fame threw this blog, I just want people to talk to. People who I can communicate with, and just share my story with. And I guess, you, yes you, that person behind that screen, your my escape.

   

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Anxiety and Panic attacks.

Disclaimer: I am in no way an expert on any of this. I have just experienced it.  

    People tell me "your so perfect" or they think that nothing is wrong in my life. But the reality is that I have a massive flaw, a flaw that stops me from doing what I want to do. You really shouldn't think "oh there life is perfect. Because everyone has something going on in their lives, everyone has a story.

     I guess a huge chapter of my story is when I started having panic attacks. When I was 11, I did swim team at the time, I walked into the warm pool, when I started to have a numbing sensation in my foot. It basically just felt as if my foot was falling asleep. But that numbness, travelled threw out my body, I started shaking and then couldn't breathe. I fell to the ground and started crying. I didn't know what was happening. My parents weren't there, and I was left with my coach who had no idea whats going on.

     If you are someone who does not suffer with panic or anxiety, I'm just going to list a few symptoms, just so you can get an idea of how it is...

• Shortness of breath or hyperventilation.

• Heart palpitations or a racing heart.

• Chest pain or discomfort.

• Trembling or shaking.

• Choking feeling.

• Feeling unreal or detached from surroundings

• Sweating

• Nausea or upset stomach

• Feeling dizzy, light-headed, or faint

• Numbness or tingling sensations

• Hot or cold flashes

• Fear of dying, losing control, or going crazy
• And more...

    It is hard to understand what someone is going threw if they're having a panic attack. You have to make sure your just there to do anything for them. Basically drop everything and help them. I find I have trouble talking when I'm panicking (Everyones different) so it's hard for me to even ask you to do anything. But just sitting next to them and waiting until its over is a very nice way to help them. Don't snuggle next to them, they really need their space, but sit next to them and give them comforting words. 

-Dont panic, they're already panicking they don't want you to panic as well.

    It was really hard for me at one point, because it stopped me from doing things I wanted to do. I was just so terrified to go out of my house. I just felt as if it would be embarrassing to panic at school. You should really surround yourself by people who know what to do, and will comfort you. As my "friends" would probably laugh and think it was a joke or something. I am lucky enough that I have only panicked once at school, and I just went to the bathroom then called my mom. School is sort of like a distraction for me, so it helps me stay calm, so I don't end up panicking as much. I do however feel very anxious almost every moment of the day. Its like theres this knot in my stomach and it never goes away. But I've learned to control it much better. I have also been seeing a psychologist who has been really helping me.

I hope this helps you, or anyone else in your life to understand this much better :)

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